Remember you are the Alpha unfolding within & as the Omega. The Alpha (True Self) is omnipotent, omnipresent & omniscient - infinite and eternal. As the Unmanifest Alpha you are beyond time and space. This means that anything that can be created has been. Anything that can happen has happened, it just has not unfolded yet within yourself as the Omega. Much like stars you are looking at tonight died billions of years ago.
Relax - stop resisting the unfoldment of life, with your ideas of how life should be. Your ideas are based in the ignorance of your true Self as Spirit. Trust your true Self until you realize it experientially.